Sadness Fulfil My Heart

I live till aged 20, tis is the first time i realize how hurt is it when my heart is being torn by someone bcuz of something... Ever since i facing failure in my last relationship on Saturday, my antibiotic has bcom weaker n weaker... I was very happy on that day, but i also very sad on that day till i cant sleep well for whole night... I woke up many times in the night, gazing at my hp, hoping for msg that i will never receive from that person unless i send the sms first... Keep on waiting n waiting until duno wat time already.. How many times have i woking up at that night?? Even i also cant count for it... It is miserable... Damn painful for me to accept the fact that we have to broke off this relationship...
Cant fulfil de each others demands respectively... i bet you are right on tis... Ever since i know you, i knew that we are quite impossible to be with together as you are looking for ppl that are different from me... And i also knew that you are not the type that i can live on with in future... But love alwaz makes ppl bcom blind... Even if both of you know that you cant be together, but you both still wanna give a try on it... That is so cruel when it came to an end for the relationship..
My mind, my body, my heart... are have started bcom stagnancy.. lagging from days to days.. I guess tis will never end unless i can let go of tis relationship...
Can we be friends again?? i reli duno about tis... I've met a dead angle for tis question... Even if you get marry wif someone else in future, i also dunno will i attend ur weeding dinner or not... I feel so sad, my heart is breaking down.. I dunno how long i still manage to stand still... I'm scare.. Scare of everyone, every relationship... Damn it..............